Missing her...

A funny and dramatic story...

Every time I'm washing my clothes, I sing so that I will also find myself entertained. Earlier, this afternoon, I was already drying up my clothes, I sang again. It just slip in my tongue to sing "Because you love me" by Celine Dion.

I was still in the lyrics part of "for all those times you stood by me, for all the truth that you made me see,for all the joy you gave to my life, for all the wrongs that you made right,for every dream you made come true, for all the love I've found in you" My voice was already stopping and it really sounds I'm gonna cry. But I finished it, "I'll be forever thankful baby, you're the one who held me up, never let me fall, you're the one who see me through, through it all..."

I went up stair to wash the dishes, and then I just cried... I cried so hard, just like a child who was lost in the middle of the shopping mall. It was funny but I pity myself for acting like that.

I cried and cried without even knowing what's the reason at all. Then, I went to my room to see my face crying, my eyes were red, and my tears didn't stop falling, my voice was already getting louder. I just then realized, I'm very much thankful that God gave me my MOMMMY (grandmother) and I'm not yet ready to stand alone, I still depend on her.

During Christmas vacation... I had a lot of time staying beside her. I can still remember when I went close to her and laid on her lap, then she brushed my hair just like when I was small child... Her hands touches softly my hair and caressed my soul. And I missed it that way. I never thought it will happen again after a long long time. I pray to spend more time with her.

I thank her a lot for guiding me all through out even we can only see each other during Christmas vacation. I'm glad I grew up with her and knew her as my second mother but definitely I knew her all my life as My mother not just as grandmother. My mommy. I love her so much. I pray to spend lifetime with her so that I can give her the beautiful days I want to share with her more.