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How I can say this?
There's this special day that is soon to come and very much excited on it. I can't wait for that moment and wear my big smile. It feels goosebumps in my head.
I wanna walk on that path with head and chin up high. I'll jump and jump 'till the peak of my heartbeat. I roll over, without any care of what may people can tell me. I'll shout until my voice wipes out. I'll cry and show them how this molds me as a person. I'll thank God for this wonderful gift. I'm almost there, ready to extend my hand for that wonderful gift. Eager to run just to take it so fast. But...
With a doubtful mind if I do really deserve it...
There's a block in front of me that even I try so hard to dump it out, I can't....It gives me pain that I don't how to heal it. What's around me is nothing to see. Empty. Full of emptiness. Full of confusion. Full of loneliness. Hope don't push me enough to still longer. I don't know what to do. My knees are weak to walk even the ego in me is keen. Only to know that my shadow's stopping me. Why?
I want to have it because, I know that makes me happy. More to know how joy shall be filled in the hearts of my love ones. Looking in the mirror how their faces glow like stars up in the sky. It's like having almost the pieces of a puzzle but to find out that one is missing and it takes time to complete because I'll need to look for the other piece. A puzzle made of pieces I can't find. And why is it hard for me to try to search for it? Does it mean giving up and letting it go? Or just waiting for something which for me is cotton candy? Soft for me to grab and take that gift and run away. And then laugh so loud, so crazy. But...
It doesn't make sense at all. No matter how I roll over, the puzzles are still incomplete. Too close yet feels so Distance.
It's Graduation Day. :|
